Monday, December 9, 2013

"'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." - Lord Alfred Tennyson

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about something which had puzzled me for the most of my life, no make that, baffled me....Although, I had stopped thinking about it for quite a while but recently because of a channel which kept showing rom-coms (romantic comedies), the four lettered word has popped up in my head yet again. So, no brownie points for guessing what might I be talking about....its love, of course and love it is for the next few moments....
Lets start from the beginning then...the first vivid memory of love or something akin to it, was when I stayed up almost all night for a boy, sometime in the eleventh year of my existence. After midnight, when I just couldn't get myself to sleep, I realized, “Oh gosh! This must be love!” This great love of mine lasted for a week or so, after which I could sleep peacefully again...Then after many years of finding, losing and then finding, again, this great realization and all the conflicting emotions of pain, pleasure, agony, ecstasy, and everything profound and silly associated with it, the word itself somehow gradually blended in the background of the daily chaos of my adult life....I became (which I am less inclined to admit) a cynic and this wasn't because of losing one great big love or the so called “love of my life”, no, it was more like realizing the sad fact that nothing really lasts....For a while I was really mad at those people who made such films, wrote such books and poems which reeked of love, it seemed to me they were selling lies.
And then, again, I was hooked. Like an old bad habit, love got me again...this time because of a channel which was silly enough to play rom-coms all day....
The point was, as put very aptly by someone, “Love is a serious business practiced by fools”...its the feeling we love, and sometimes when people hurt us, they make us forget the good part of being in love, and we end up hating the wrong sort of people...so I decided to forgive them, people who made those movies, wrote those stories and poems, since true or not, they felt good....and to enjoy the feeling because it doesn't last.

"love is more thicker than forget
more thinner than recall
more seldom than a wave is wet
more frequent than to fail
it is most mad and moonly
and less it shall unbe
than all the sea which only
is deeper than the sea
love is less always than to win
less never than alive
less bigger than the least begin
less littler than forgive
it is most sane and sunly
and more it cannot die
than all the sky which only
is higher than the sky "

- E.E. Cummings